"Because I just don’t see a reason anymore" he said holding pills in his hand. He took one from the pile if one could guess how many he had about 13. "This one" he said to anyone that would listen at this point even the walls were deaf to him. "This one is for you tommy" holding the pill up to Sky where he didn’t believe heaven was. "And this one" with his other and his eyes dashing through the pills till he the different one. "This one is for you mom!" He swallows the pill and wait for a moment with his eyes closed. With his hand hovering over the pills. "And all these" he hand runs across all the pills. "These are for you god!" Tears start coming down his face "all the years you laughed at me. Well I’m in control now" he stands "I’m in control now!" He takes half the pills and then with eyes closed and much pain he takes them. The other half is soon to follow. He falls he knows he can’t stop it. He looks up the white hits he’s eye. "There is no heaven for"